Time keeps slipping by

Time sneaks up on you, at least for stupid people like me who are stuck in their head. It feels like yesterday I was like 25, now I'm 39. Now I have people in their 20s saying things "wow you're old" or things like "you look like a professor"

I might have some kind of mental disorder that makes me sort of slip into my head. But my god I feel old. I dont feel old, I still have my energy, physical energy anyways. I still wake up with morning wood almost every morning.

I feel like a 25 year old that has been frozen for the past several years in a lot of ways in my head the 2000s never ended. I still sort of think gender stuff is a joke like I did back then. "I sexually identify as a ROFL attack copter" or how else the old crusty meme goes. I dont understand that gender stuff at all. That just sort of showed up suddenly last year it seems. Like wtf is that shit.. And why is it so mainstream seemly all of a sudden?

Now I'm middle aged and I'm not sure what I've been doing most of my life. I have an idea, but my memory sort of hides things from me.

My mind(as everyone mind) seems to have its' own deep web. Sort of like the internet has a deep web. My mind wont allow me to look into those little databases and sometimes the black boxes will open up and surprise me with something when I 'click something' in my mind then something else appears. Reminds me of Final Fantasy VI. A monster in box. But it's not scary, it's just popping out at me and it was unexpected.